... am i doing this right?

glorious sounds coming from above..
but somehow, it hurts.
knowing things i know i should be very grateful for..
somehow isnt enough.
i dont know why but i need something more.
i cant see things clearly.
i dont know whether its wrong or right.
im just doing what i feel is right.
but still..
these glorious sounds cant move away my doubts.
i know im steps ahead now.
but is this what im looking for? what im intending to?
i guess its a 'no'.
this isnt it.
like there's always mistakes in whatever right things we do.
and that there's a blessing in every cursed things we see.
and then.
now i started questioning again.
a question i should never let it shouts my head again..
"am i doing this right?"
"just when will i begin?"
maybe..
maybe in times, i'll know..
but maybe i wont.
and here it comes again.. that only GOD knows.
and that i should be more and more patient than before.














... karena setidaknya dengan menunggu, aku bisa belajar lebih banyak lagi.. i hope.. ^ ^